ʞasie.'s Polyvore

yesterday was, let's see how many times we can ask kasie what happened day. and then make her heart break a little more. like seriously. jesus.
 
but hey, i felt daamn good last night. so whatever.
 
so, i'm running on five hours of sleep from all weekend. and i'm just here.

i'm shaking. you left me here wondering. there is no book that tells me what happens next, i can't skip the painful parts and get to the part where we're okay again. together or not. although i'd rather it be the former. but this isn't just my story, and this time around, darling, you're the wild card.
 
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i've lied before,
but never to you.
i've loved before,
but never like you.

i'll be there on your best days, to help you relish in the happiness. to make sure you see what a good man you are.
i'll be there on your worst days, through the tears and the yelling, and i'll hold you while you cling to me like i'm the only reason you're still breathing. and to remind you that you're better than you realize, better than you think.
i'll be there to guide you through the things that you're scared to finish. i'll be there when you think you've lost. i'll be there to put a smile on your face that lights up any room. i'll stay up by your side all night to make sure you finally get some rest, no matter how tired i am.
i'll be there when you become the man i know you can be. and i'll stay with you after to make sure you don't lose sight of who you really are.
 
basically, whenever you want me, whenever you need me, i'll be here for you. no matter what.
 
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"you're my angel. you're all i've ever wanted, all i've ever needed. and i'm in love with you. you're my angel that kills all the demons inside of me."
 
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i get so scared.
so worried.
so paranoid.
please, please,
don't hate me for it.

i've sucked at making sets lately.
oops.
on the plus side, my best friend got married yesterday.
and i finished my spanish 2 class in a week.
and i'm going to see him tonight.
and the puppy, my poor little girl. stupid snakes.
 
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i wanna be in wonderland;

you're lucky i don't tell him you're trying this again. and you're even luckier that you don't live around here anymore. or he'd beat the livin' hell out of you.
 
so please, for my sanity, leave me alone.
 
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excuse me,
while i kiss the sky.

"she treats me like i give her a million bucks everyday, but she don't ask a damn thing of me."
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i am in quite a wonderful mood.
ruin it, i'll hate you.

my birthday is tomorrow.
and honestly, i don't really care about my birthday.
i mean, i've never expected anything out of it.
the past couple years, they haven't been that great.
so i don't have high expectations.
considering the days leading up to it haven't been that great either.
 
okay, i'm done whining.
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i read too bloody much.
i need my nails redone.
blarg.
how are you?

happy birfday to the one guy i know will give me a hug at any time, no matter what. you are a wonderful, loving, sweet, and funny friend. and i hope you have a great day.
@nathan-henry
 
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it's been a weird day.
but hey, i'm halfway done with this daamn spanish class.
 
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let's talk.

if only i knew what you wanted from me,
perhaps i could be what you want me to be.
 
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i find it rather funny that my mom can yell at me and say all these awful things, and then rub my head and play with my hair and let me sleep not an hour later.
the hard part is figuring out what she was saying purely because she was in a bad mood, and what she actually meant.
 
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"cause pain hurts but it heals too, and after all the shit that i been through, i got it."

i'm starting to wonder why i'm here.
then i realize it's because i care about some of you.
and i don't want to walk away from those of you.
but it doesn't make it any less difficult to decide.
god knows i don't think i'd ever delete this.
just stop coming on.
but i don't know.
oh well.
 
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it's relatively difficult to type with these damn nails.
in case any of you were wondering.
haha.
 
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sometimes things change for the worse.
sometimes things change for the better.
and sometimes even though it feels awful at first, the change is better in ways you just can't see yet.
 
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